Thursday, May 31, 2007

DFL, baby!

I've had May 30th on my calendar for the past 2 months since this whole EBV came back to put a wrench in my life again. May 30 would be my return to racing and my first Wed night racing at the track as a Cat 3 (oooooh!!). However, whilst having a Zack-tacular time in Santa Fe doing some high altitude training and green chili tasting, I managed to come down with a nasty head cold/flu thing that beat me down quickly and rendered me a giant fleshy wasteland of phlegm. But being as stubborn as I am, I wouldn't let this bug keep me from showing up and fulfilling my goal. Plus my parents and Zack were in town and I had to show them that I really do know how to ride a bike fast-ish.

So between hacking and farmer snotting in the infield and along the banks, many friends welcomed me back to racing, which was a sweet sweet feeling. The girls that I race with are such a good group. Everyone supports each other and is happy to see you at the races. However, just throwing my leg over the bike I could tell that my energy just wasn't there. No zip to be had, but I figured I just needed to warm up. After a few dozen laps I could tell that this cold was having a bigger impact on my health than I thought. Lungs are generally a useful tool when it comes to breathing hard, but they were full of the goo that was previously up in my head and my energy was still tapped. Well I paid my $15 so what the hell. I figured I'd do as Tamara says and just learn one good thing each race.

There were 3 great races - an 8-lap scratch, a 2-lap scratch heat, and a 4x4 snowball. In each one I pretty much finished DFL, "mostly" on purpose. No use in throwing it all out there when I wasn't up to it. I learned a lot, including that hucking loogies and hacking up a lung is a great distraction on your competition.

My prince did want me to test out my high altitude training and talked me into giving it all just once to see what I could do. He has a great way of reminding me that I have more energy than I think I do (sucker!). So in the first bell lap on the 4x4 I saw that no one was surging forward, so I attacked on the bell and expected a squadron of girls behind me, but all of a sudden I was totally alone and no one was near me. I have no idea how that happened other than they let me go out of sheer pity. But even more, it absolutely crushed my system and I was a sad little puppy following them the remaining 12 laps. So this is what it's like to totally suck!!

It was a great pack of girls, including a few 2s, 3s, and 4s. I figure if I could hang with them while hacking disease all over the track I could be ok with them when I'm healthy. June 6 is on my calendar.

3 comments:

Jess said...

Dude... I just want to tell you that I admire you for doing this even when you feel like crap. I know it is really hard to have a handicap that other people can't see. So demoralizing.

So... don't give up. I am totally cheering for you, and you inspire me!

jillita said...

Thanks Jess! That's so good to hear and if I can inspire anyone that means a lot. Chronic fatigue represent!

The little demon in me wants to spit in everyone's water bottles so they might get a chance to know what kryptonite feels like. Bastards.

Jess said...

Hahaha! Kryptonite. Oh man. If I think of my health problems like that, maybe it will make me feel like superwoman instead of... a lamer.

I've been getting stronger lately... unfortunately I think it has to do with summer and not with real progress in my health. I always expect a downswing as the weather gets cooler... but maybe it won't happen this time?

In any case, I know *some* day I will be strong... I just have to be patient. Some day I will be able to beat up my body (in good ways) as much as I want and it will just react by getting stronger, instead of making me want to sleep for 3 days. :D